Being in an intimate relationship in sobriety is difficult to say the least. Relationships are like steroids for my character defects; they cause them to grow more powerful than I imagined possible. From jealousy to control issues, my need to be right to my need to know everything, my character defects really come to light [...]
Hell of a Year
One year ago at this moment, I was driving from Los Angeles to San Francisco. I was to stay at my parents’ house for a night, then drive with my mom from San Francisco to Portland, Oregon. The plan upon arriving to Oregon was to turn myself in to the Washington County Sheriff’s Department for [...]
Remove These Defects
The Seventh Step of Alcoholics Anonymous states: “Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.” I have noticed this step is often passed over quickly by many who are working the steps for their first time (myself included). As time passed on in my recovery, and I progressed, I found this to be an extremely [...]
The Importance of Daily Inventory
Recently, I have not been following through with my commitment to my sobriety. Yes, I have abstained from the use of any and every mind altering substance, but I lost some fire for the program. I had a legal matter come up that requires me to go to jail for a few weeks, and then [...]
Twelve N’ Twelve – p. 95
“Having so considered our day, not omitting to take due note of things well done, and having searched our hearts with neither fear nor favor, we can truly thank God for the blessings we have received and sleep in good conscience.”
Big Book – p. 87
“Being still inexperienced and having just made conscious contact with God, it is not probable that we are going to be inspired at all times. We might pay for this presumption in all sorts of absurd actions and ideas. Nevertheless, we find that our thinking will, as time passes, be more and more on the [...]
Are Resentments the #1 Offender?
I often hear people quote the line in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous where it says, “Resentments are our #1 Offender.” I have taken this line as gospel, and done everything possible to purge myself of resentments. Furthermore, I try to prevent from acquiring resentments in the first place. However, after having a discussion [...]
Continuing to Take Personal Inventory, Right View, and Right Intention
I have found in my recovery that I must continue to take personal inventory ON PAPER. Simply trying to do it in my head does not work, and I fall behind. Furthermore, when I am doing a written inventory, I must also take the action to make amends where they are due.
Shortcomings Removed
When I took the fourth and fifth step with my sponsor, I felt relieved almost immediately. Compiling a list of my character defects, I felt completely willing to have them removed by my Higher Power. I prayed that they be removed, as to increase my effectiveness to others. After a year went by, I realized [...]

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